personal training! EEP!

EEP! tomorrow is my very first personal training session and boy oh boy am i nervous!

I'm scared im going to be t-rex sore like that first weight lifting class where i couldnt bend my arms and not the mention the legs making me walk funny!!! haha
im also afraid im going to puke haha..


alright back to biggest loser , even though its seriously the worst season every!! these cry babies who just keep playing the game instead of doing what they are there to do.. LOSE WEIGHT! they are down to 8 people in the episode im watching... (im a little behind) and i swear last year they were all wayyyy thinner than this cast is.

monday means business!!

WOW The thanksgiving holiday / pre-holiday sure were rough for counting calories and exercising! Before the holiday i worked out tuesday the 23rd.. then not again until today! Normally i dont work out on tuesday but boy oh boy i had gained 3.6 pounds and i was like no way jose! back to business!!

So i am back to measuring portions and only eating things that i can get a calorie count from! So far im doing super! mind you its only been one day but i was actually 4 calories under my alloted amount for 1300 something ! my mantra of the day was "you are full!" "you are full!"

BUT! on to more positive news i have reignited my love for shopping and clothes! i love being able to try on clothes no matter what store im in and find things that i love the way i look in them! its a super awesome feeling!

alrighty ya'll wish me luck!! :)

WOW!

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Aids Walk

On October 17th im doing a walk in austin texas for aids/hiv awareness and support in central texas. Im not even half way to my goal of 250 but maybe you can help me get there. All i ask is instead of spending that 5.00 for your starbucks coffee in the morning or your friday night beer after work .. or for the healtier people.. the smoothie after your workout to please put that towards a good cause!!

You can show your support for me by clicking this link!!

thank you!!

yoga and delicious dinner :)

a day full of awesome news!!

first! at yoga this morning i did 2 new poses that i hadn't done before. i had always tried to do the shoulder stand but this morning i did it! mind you my legs were not completely straight but it takes time people!!


the 2nd pose was camel pose, but it was slightly modified as i only had one arm down and the other was up but its better than nothing!!

I'm so proud of myself I've come so far! :)



2nd! i made this delicious Crab Salad Melt on an english muffin. its kinda like a tuna melt but i hateeee tuna! mmmm yum!! it was very good! i put a little too much tabasco and when i ate it, it kept bumping my nose so now my nose is burning lol.

:)

HELLO!

i updated my work out play list on the left. its got my jams!!

I've been having numerous ear issues since the begining of the year. It started with just impacted wax then after that was cleared up a few months later i started to get super dizzy and had a wooshing noise in my ears and turned out it was my Eustachian tube in my ear which apparently is the tube that controls air pressure , balance and drains fluids. It was swollen from allergies so the doctor prescribed zyrtec d and it cleared up. Last night i started getting that same whooshing feeling/sound again and started taking allergy meds as i was out of zyrtec D but i didn't help and i woke up picked some up from walgreens and started the zyrtec D again. Didn't help as soon as i wanted so i had to leave work early as i couldn't stop feeling like the world was spinning. SOOOO no work out today. boo!!

anyhoo watched biggest loser. not sure how i feel about the change in the elimination and the yellow line but perhaps it will make things a little more fair. who knows!

anyhoo going to get to bed! but before i do i wanted to share this horrific picture i found from march of last year




this was me like 2 weeks ago


tomorrow is a new day!

2 posts in a 24 hour period say whattttt

i wrote this bio for my lose it profile so i wanted to share it here..

its a little about my history when it comes to my weight

ive always been a kinda chubby girl.

growing up i started as a pretty average sized girl .. then the stresses of growing up hit me around the age of 10 as the few friends i had bailed on me and not knowing what to do i turned to food . fast forward and im 14 years old wearing an adult size 14/16

i start hanging out with my future best friend when i was 13 and i become a lot more active. walking everywhere! i start losing a ton of weight. went from a size 14/16 all the way to a size 4 by the time i was 16 years old. During that time i wasn't eating very healthy and at times skipped meals completely. i see it as having a eating disorder. some days i would just drink kool-aid and eat smores pop tarts.

i met my husband when i was 17 and at that point i didn't know how to maintain my new size 4 so i go up to a size 6/8 THEN 8 months into our relationship we move to Austin,Texas where my husbands bad eating habits with my lack of self control i balloon up over 8 years to a size 18/20 the biggest i had ever been in my life.

i had to do something about it was tired of being fat and not being able to wear what i want. so i found lose it on a list of recommended iphone apps and here i am! 50 + pounds lighter and feeling much better about my self. i am still struggling with self control but I' m working on it.

feeling good!

Sorry for the lack in posts!!

I've been feeling really good. I feel like I'm really back on track. I haven't eaten badly today, haven't had a binge in almost a week, been working out and been noticing the scale drop!

I'm taking things one day at a time rather than trying to look at the whole picture. Bad day? no big deal tomorrow is a new day!!

biggest loser began last Tuesday .. that may be helping with my inspiration as well. i saw all those woman who's numbers were so close to mine where i started @ 248 and i couldn't even picture myself being that big. I will never ever let myself and my weight get to that number ever again. Burgundy i think is the one im hoping wins..well with only watching one episode. its crazy how far I've come in the last year. wow. its literally been a year. today would be a full year since i started counting calories. 56 pounds in a year? i think that's pretty good. that's like a pound a week!

anyhoo! its kinda late and i just watched 2 episodes of teen mom so im sleepy!
that amber is a psychopath and farrah is a drama queen

chocolate shakes , french fries and cake.. oh my!

I think I'm in a rut and/or a plateau. I' eat really well throughout the week for the most part but then the weekend shows up and all hell breaks loose. It's like i want to lose more weight but at the same time i want to eat whatever i want. I am sabotaging myself.
I've been better the last 2-3 days but i still feel it lurking around the corner as the weekend approaches.

I need more support. I need Kelly to say no to when i try to drink a shake, or eat french fries instead of a salad.. or when i get a snack after dinner when I'm completely and obviously not hungry.


please give me the support to continue and not quit! I've gone too far to quit now!!

new goals... new motivations

I need inspiration people!! I feel so unmotivated! I need a goal to work toward.. my last goal was to go below 200 pounds (currently at 197.8) now that I'm here what next? maybe my new goal should be to get out of the size 16's and to get into 14's.. but is that enough for me to strive for?? Do i even want it that badly? UGH im getting frustrated. ....-shakes it off- MOVING ON! How am i going to get there? Who's going to push me?? bueller? bueller??
I need everyone i come across to slap me if i try eating something bad.. like today i ate Chinese buffet! what was i thinking! Then dinner was awful too Frito Pie THEN i proceeded to have a shake after dinner as well.
In September it will be a year since ive started this whole thing.. part of me thinks i should have more of a weight loss.. maybe that should be a goal to lose an additional 20 pounds by September..

THATS IT! THATS WHAT I'LL DO.. by September 25th 2010. That would have been exactly 1 year since i started..

YES! alright! i am pumped!!
(dont let me get unpumped k??)

PIGGIE PIGGIE PIGGIE

Wow.. its been over a month since my last post. I'm sorry alot of it had to do with me being so busy but then also of it had to do with the fact that i was slacking so hard. I wasn't counting my calories at all. I would eat whatever i wanted...like drinking beer and eating fries and KFC. tsk tsk tsk..gained 4 pounds. i hit 198 and then i went on my eating spree and gained 4 pounds. UGHH
BUT! I AM BACK ON TRACK. Yesterday I started staying back within my calories and counting again.

Kristy and i went to the gym after work. I went straight for the dreaded Stair master and did.. 13 mins and 45 seconds and couldn't take anymore!!! SO TOUGH! then i did 30 mins on a broken elliptical. HAHA it was broken because it wouldn't let me adjust the incline or resistance. SO! i selected interval training as i normally do and when it went to 10 for the incline and 8 resistance and i felt like i couldn't take anymore and normally i move it down i couldn't!! So it totally sucked! haha but in the best way possible.

I am making an agreement with my roommate that if she sees me going into the kitchen to try to eat after i already had dinner she has to yell at me haha.. hopefully that will work.

Tomorrow me and kristy are going to a kick boxing type class.. should be fun!!
alright yall goodnight!!

boom boom pow....

I went to the weight lifting class again...and I'm not incredibly sore! mind you i cut the weights in half because i didn't want to get t-rex arms again but i did feel great from the lifting.

I had a rocky weekend food wise but tomorrow is a new day and tomorrow i will get back on track. I wasn't doing too terribly maybe 100 -200 calories over but i still feel guilty.

I'm currently watching the new Lose It with Jillian Michaels and so far i love it. It's all the yelling and working out of biggest loser without the money and the kicking of people off. I want Jillian to come and live with me and yell at me a little. haha ..well maybe...maybe not haha.

biggest loser finale

WOW biggest loser was ..well i want to say shocking but I'm not surprised by the winner. I'm just so proud of all the losers for all that they went through and the changes that they made in their lives.

So "Lose it!" has put me below 1400 calories and honestly I'm doing fine with it, i thought wow i will never be able to stay within 1400 but I've realized that i just have to eat enough to not be hungry anymore and to not eat and eat until i cannot eat anymore. I keep eyeballing those blender bottles and thinking that may be a good way to make smoothies while at work.. but I'm unsure. Any one use them? have any good LOW calorie, of course, recipes? any successes from it?


OH BTW I am at 202 now!! YAY :)

i've got a big head and little arms..

So my weigh in was a little delayed to my body being so sore i felt like was a T-REX because my arms couldn't bend right.. haha..so i weighed in today and it was...drum roll please...the total was 203.8!! that makes my total weight loss @ 44.2 pounds! I'm so amped, 4 more pounds to go and I'll be out of the 200's FOREVER!!!

I also noticed yesterday that my size 16 jeans were fitting a lot better than they were a week ago. I'm saying goodbye to my lane bryant jeans as they are way too baggy. So the husband and i took a trip to the Old Navy outlet store in San Marcos and i got their DIVA jeans and they are currently on sale for 19.99 at the outlet store only. So i got to the checkout and they rang up for.. 2.48, yes i said TWO DOLLARS AND FORTY EIGHT CENTS! Swiped the credit card and then left the store.. stood outside for a second and then went inside to get a size down and get a price check.. normal price. oh well. just saved myself 17.51 woo hoo haha.

oh and i also got this yoga mat before today's yoga class and it made my life way easier to not use their gross yoga foam mat things. yuck.. its orange and has butterflies i like it :)

why i'm doing this...

Inspiration. I've been called an inspiration. i don't know what to think about that as I've never seen myself as that. So then it got me to thinking why i started this thing in the first place....my reasons were and still are

- to be healthier
- to be able to walk up the 3 flights of stairs to my apartment without getting winded.
- TO FIT INTO REGULAR SIZES and NOT plus sizes...i hate having to spend 40+ dollars for a pair of jeans
- to look in the mirror and LIKE what i see.

my newest reason would be to able to run a 5k or eventually a marathon.

I'm still pretty sore from Sunday.. haven't worked out since then. my legs are finally working properly just my arms are still sore.. so tomorrow we (kristy and i) are going to have a light light workout.

So im off to finish watching glee and then to bed

push it real good!

OH MAN! I AM SORE! Even with being so incredibly sore i had a lot of fun this weekend. The Latin spice class made me feel incredibly uncoordinated but it kept me going and kept me sweating definitely a class i will continue to attend. After that we went to refuel at smoothie king then headed off to yoga class , my first instructor led yoga class and it was AWESOME! I loved it. The instructor was very easy to follow and went thru a 1-4 level system which allowed you to figure out what positions you could handle and what kind of modifications to do. I felt awesome after wards too, so refreshed and ready for nap!

Today we went to a weight lifting class and it kicked my ass! seriously! i am soooo sore from it, we were going to try a different yoga class with a different instructor which so happened to have been the same one that taught the lifting class but we decided not too because we would have fallen over doing just a downward dog haha. But after seeing this instructor with the lifting class we decided we liked the other instructors mellow attitude and awesome teaching from saturdays class anyway.

Im now in the market for a good yoga mat .. any suggestions??

ps: tomorrow is weigh in! wish me luck! :)

yoga! and latin spice! i love exclaimation points!

WOO! i should be preparing myself for tomorrow but i can't help myself the internet calls to me! haha

tomorrow me and Kristy are going to two classes. The first is called Latin Spice and its 45 mins of Latin-like cardio dancing. should be fun, then after that we are doing yoga.. yes i said yoga! I've only done yoga in the privacy of my own apartment so I'm a little nervous to do it with a whole class!
Then Sunday we are doing a lifting class thing.. i dunno its weird. then after a different yoga trainers class, we are going to each to see which trainer we like more.

anyhoo going to chug some water and head to bed!
good night! :)

ps thanks to all my new followers! i really appreciate it!

spin class and membership

I SPUN! I SPINNEDED! haha.. spin class was an hour long and i didn't die! BUT OH MAN, my butt hurts tremendously though from the tiniest seat ever.
There were maybe a total of 5 mins where i wasn't peddling but i did it! i did a few runs and i did a few of the pop ups when i felt like i wasn't going to fall over haha. I'm so proud of myself.

I also joined the gym, now i have a fitness center in my apartment complex but I've been getting incredibly burned out with the elliptical and the treadmill that i needed something new, something to push me.
i feel inspired i feel like i can get thru this and make it on the other side of the 200's

biggest loser tonight brought me to tears! multiple times! geeeez i cant believe there is only one more episode left!!

i'm on the right path..ive got this..

but seriously my butt might be bruised. haha

back on track.. for real!

Sorry about my lack in postings i was very unmotivated this last week. With the failures in calorie counting and the failures in motivation to work out i just kinda laid around and watched TV.. BUT good news! I'm back on the ball!

Yesterday i did my weekend walk with my friend Kristy around town lake in downtown Austin , about an hour of walking AND stayed within my calorie budget.

Today i ate kinda terribly but my work out helped me stay within my budget. I did intervals on the eliptical of 2 min fast pace sorta like "running" and 2 min regular pace almost "walking"

Monday is going to be an off day depending on how long Iron Man 2 is and how i feel when i get home because tuesday night after work me and Kristy got free 7 day passes to 24 hour Fitness and there is a...SPIN CLASS well, hopefully there is a sign up sheet so if its full then no but if is it we are going to do some lap swimming. We have the whole week planned out too! Thursday = turbo kick which is like kick boxing , Friday would be lap swimming again and Saturday would be Latin spice which is like Latin dance move Cardio stuff.. then Sunday is an off day , then Monday night is Cardio dance party. I just need something new and different to keep me motivated i can't keep doing such repetitive work outs.

alright well thats all from me.. im going to go back some Lemon-Raspberry Muffins which only have 186 calories each! Using this recipe

Quick hello

I'm still around! Just trying to mentally get thru the bingefest that finally ended on Saturday! The 3 pounds I gained from it somehow fell off it may have been due to the 10k I did Saturday!!! I mainly walked but there were parts where I ran :) all thanks to couch to 5k I can't wait for the moment where I can run an entire 5k

Anyhoos there is a bake sale at work and the table of cookies is calling me but I will resist!! I said no!!

Also my new desk neighbor as a bowl of candy that is literally in my periferual (sp?) view and I don't know how much longer I can last eeeeep!!!

-- Post From My iPhone

binging and running

Okay so its been a few days and I'm still struggling with my TOM coming soon so I'm still having problems resisting the urge for chocolate and other terrible foods. grr!.. It's very very hard. On Monday i literally had 2 pieces of chocolate cake.. TWO PIECES! I don't know whats going on this period needs to come so i can stop eating like crazy. I've gained 2 pounds so im back up to 210. Besides the holidays this week has the been the hardest week food wise. I WILL GET PAST THIS!


BUT! i haven't given up on couch to 5k! last night i did the 1st day of week two which was running for 90 seconds and walking for 2 minutes and seriously i already can tell a difference in my stamina that first day i got so winded about half way through and last night i didn't get that side stitch until the last run. I'm very impressed and I'm really looking forward to being done and being able to run and run and run!

UGH!

So its almost that time of the month and boy oh boy are my calories showing it. starting on Friday when me and Kelly had a date night and saw Kick Ass I've been inhaling food and just binging like crazy. It'll pass no worries!!

Tomorrow is definitely a new day and day 3 of Couch to 5k!!

PS: that picture is from a coin purse my friend mandy has LOL and when i googled period it was the first image HAHA

drum roll please!!!

I've got a couple of HUGE announcements!!!

I'll start with the smallest accomplishment first. Last night after watching half of the biggest loser it was 8pm so i went for my daily( or nightly) workout as I was about to head out of the door Kelly asked "how long are you working out for?" I said " uhhh.. 30 minutesi dunno" and he said "Go longer! go for 45 minutes." I replied with "okay?" Then he said "No do 47." I laughed and said "Okay I'll do 47 minutes on the elliptical." I walked my happy butt down the 3 flights of stairs and you know what ... i did 50 minutes on the elliptical!!! IN YO FACE! I was absolutely amp'd and so very proud of myself. I'm definitely feeling it today though, especially in my stomach muscles. LOL but it was worth every 50 minutes of it :)

Now for the second announcement.. this one is quite a bit larger! I have officially lost a total of 40 pounds! :) :) I weighed in this morning because Monday morning i wasn't feeling it and the scale read 208!! booo yeah!! :)

and last but definitely not least!.... I started Couch to 5K tonight.. yeah i know i said i would start May 1st but i downloaded the Iphone application this morning and i was just far too excited to give it a try. I AM BEAT! I almost gave up in that 7th and 8th runs but i just stayed focused and kept going. I'm so excited i CAN be a runner! :)

I am so exhausted, I've got my giant glass of water and going to lay in bed and rest with the husband and watch the slammin' salmon. Good night!! :)

running running.. as fast as you can

I want to run a 5k.. not walk... run. I'm not anywhere near that point but that's ONE of my many goals.
I have looked into the app for the iphone called Couch to 5k and i plan on starting that on May 1st.

I made those two meals this weekend from the 1001 low carb cook book , the chicken burritos and the mock hamburger helper. Kelly , the picky eating husband, said the mock hamburger helper was "okay", I loved it! It gave me enough leftovers for the whole week of lunches AND its low calorie! The chicken burritos were pretty good ( as Kelly said ). The chicken breasts simmer in the crock pot for like 5 hours with a mixture of chili powder, lime juice, garlic and jalapenos and its gooood. not too spicy and just really tender and delicious!

I think I overall did pretty well this week. I'm going to do my official weigh in of the week tomorrow morning when i wake up . Cross your fingers people!! And to all you out there also eating healthy remember tomorrow is a new day!!

zumba??

My friend and Saturday morning walking partner Kristy, who recently got on the weight loss journey with me , mentioned a workout/dance thing called Zumba. It's line a dance aerobics with latin flavor! We are totally going to give it a try it looks like alot of fun, has anyone else ever done it?

price check! isle 3!

I went grocery shopping tonight. I love going grocery shopping because i get to spend so much time in the produce section and i just love it. I picked up cantaloupe since its been on sale for the past 2-3 weeks I've been getting one every week. I loooooove cantaloupe. I also love honeydew but for some reason I can't seem to find it when I'm there.

The menu for the week is...
Saturday -Chicken Burritos from the 1001 low carb meals book
Sunday -a "Hamburger Helper" knockoff with turkey meat and low carb noodles , i couldn't find any low carb noodles at my local HEB so i got the Smart Taste kind.
Monday - our one night to eat out probably subway or something
Tuesday - Chicken Quesadillas on whole wheat tortillasWednesday - Lean Burgers on those thin little bun thingsThursday - Tacos for the husband and a taco salad for me
Friday - possible date night :)

I will definitely post some pictures and rate the new recipes I am trying this weekend. I sure hope they are gooood :) I love just reading that cookbook even though I'm not completely LOW CARB but I do want to minimize my carbs on a daily or weekly basis so this book helps. The recipes all have ingredients that are normal not weird things that nobody buys like chickpeas or whatnot.

Unfortunately I didnt get to work out tonight because of going to the grocery store, but i normally work out 5-6 days a week so no biggie :)

LOL

yummm... to yuck!

EDIT : i was alerted that there was a problem with leaving comments! sorry ya'll! its back to normal now so comment away ! :)


Sometimes i miss the foods i used to eat.. the terrible terrible foods i used to eat. This past Sunday me and my friend Lyn went to get a Cinnabon and i ate an entire classic Cinnabon it had 750 calories. Yes, i just said 750 calories. The moment after i ate it i felt sick and woozy from all the sugar. That's when i realized i hadn't eaten anything with that amount of sugar in a very very very long time. yuck. i am still trying to work off the calories from that LOL.


I have changed alot of my eating habits since September for instance me and my husband used to make dinner 2 times a week and eat out the other 5 days, fast food mostly. Now we eat out 2 days a week and make food the other 5 days. I'm pretty proud of ourselves but every now and then i totally crave a disgusting meal from jack in the box or tons and tons of fried foods! haha! the moral to the story is that i will get past the cravings or succumb but then regret it immediately. haha!

i just got back from the fitness center and out of the shower and watching tonight's dvr'd episode of the biggest loser. i had to drag myself out of bed to go but i did it. i did 30 minutes on the elliptical with about 98% of the time the resistance being higher than 8 not bad if i do say so myself. im trying to push it. its so much easier for me to push it when someone is with me, like with my friend kristy on our walks we ran up the two sets of stairs we run into on our two laps and i really pushed myself to not wuss out and stop.. but when im by myself.. ugh sooo tough!

mmmm i love fudgesicles. they give my that chocolate craving without the chocolate calories. they are only 40 calories for one bar! perfect for that after dinner ice cream/chocolate fix.

My step mom bought me this 1001 low carb cookbook and i've already stuck post it notes all over the place. This weekend we are actually trying a few recipes so we will see how that goes!! one of them is like a fake hamburger helper thing and the other is whats called a chicken burrito but it sounds way more like a chicken taco haha. anyhoo! i hope they are good! ill keep ya'll posted!

wish list...

--part of me wants either the gruve or the go wear fit just so i can see exactly how much im burning during the day but i dont know if i can justify spending 200 dollars on it.

- kettle ball, they use it on the biggest loser that must mean something

- new bathing suit, one thats good for swimming i particularly like this one from target

- wii fit, i know it probably would burn more calories doing the actual activity but it seems like i would be fun especially the hula hooping and yoga.

Hi, My name is Ashley and im an overeater and junk food junkie....

This was me taken on 4/24/09 @ about 248 pounds.

I am starting this blog a little late into my journey but im still starting it! I started to change my life September of 2009 when i realized i weighed 248 pounds. I moved to an apartment that was one the 3rd floor and hated being winded and out of breath every time i went upstairs. So! i did something about it, i downloaded an application from Itunes called Lose it!. It's an application that allows you to track your calories, your exercise and the weigh ins.

This is me 3/5/10 @ about 215 pounds.

I weighed in today after a total pig out fest yesterday with a classic cinnabon which had 750 calories.. yes i just said 750 calories. so when i just weighed in it was at 211 today. so that makes for a total of weight loss at 37 pounds, but im definitely on my way. I work out about 5-6 times a week at my apartment complexes fitness center. I generally lift weights for about 10 mins and then do the elipitcal for 30-45 minutes.

For lunch today i had leftover homemade pizza from last nights dinner... I used this recipe Eating Well Whole Wheat Pizza dough, top it off with some pizza sauce, italian cheese mix , turkey pepperoni, bell peppers and onions and its only estimated at 382 calories for 2 slices of pizza! :) yum yum yum.