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HELLO!

i updated my work out play list on the left. its got my jams!!

I've been having numerous ear issues since the begining of the year. It started with just impacted wax then after that was cleared up a few months later i started to get super dizzy and had a wooshing noise in my ears and turned out it was my Eustachian tube in my ear which apparently is the tube that controls air pressure , balance and drains fluids. It was swollen from allergies so the doctor prescribed zyrtec d and it cleared up. Last night i started getting that same whooshing feeling/sound again and started taking allergy meds as i was out of zyrtec D but i didn't help and i woke up picked some up from walgreens and started the zyrtec D again. Didn't help as soon as i wanted so i had to leave work early as i couldn't stop feeling like the world was spinning. SOOOO no work out today. boo!!

anyhoo watched biggest loser. not sure how i feel about the change in the elimination and the yellow line but perhaps it will make things a little more fair. who knows!

anyhoo going to get to bed! but before i do i wanted to share this horrific picture i found from march of last year




this was me like 2 weeks ago


tomorrow is a new day!

2 posts in a 24 hour period say whattttt

i wrote this bio for my lose it profile so i wanted to share it here..

its a little about my history when it comes to my weight

ive always been a kinda chubby girl.

growing up i started as a pretty average sized girl .. then the stresses of growing up hit me around the age of 10 as the few friends i had bailed on me and not knowing what to do i turned to food . fast forward and im 14 years old wearing an adult size 14/16

i start hanging out with my future best friend when i was 13 and i become a lot more active. walking everywhere! i start losing a ton of weight. went from a size 14/16 all the way to a size 4 by the time i was 16 years old. During that time i wasn't eating very healthy and at times skipped meals completely. i see it as having a eating disorder. some days i would just drink kool-aid and eat smores pop tarts.

i met my husband when i was 17 and at that point i didn't know how to maintain my new size 4 so i go up to a size 6/8 THEN 8 months into our relationship we move to Austin,Texas where my husbands bad eating habits with my lack of self control i balloon up over 8 years to a size 18/20 the biggest i had ever been in my life.

i had to do something about it was tired of being fat and not being able to wear what i want. so i found lose it on a list of recommended iphone apps and here i am! 50 + pounds lighter and feeling much better about my self. i am still struggling with self control but I' m working on it.

feeling good!

Sorry for the lack in posts!!

I've been feeling really good. I feel like I'm really back on track. I haven't eaten badly today, haven't had a binge in almost a week, been working out and been noticing the scale drop!

I'm taking things one day at a time rather than trying to look at the whole picture. Bad day? no big deal tomorrow is a new day!!

biggest loser began last Tuesday .. that may be helping with my inspiration as well. i saw all those woman who's numbers were so close to mine where i started @ 248 and i couldn't even picture myself being that big. I will never ever let myself and my weight get to that number ever again. Burgundy i think is the one im hoping wins..well with only watching one episode. its crazy how far I've come in the last year. wow. its literally been a year. today would be a full year since i started counting calories. 56 pounds in a year? i think that's pretty good. that's like a pound a week!

anyhoo! its kinda late and i just watched 2 episodes of teen mom so im sleepy!
that amber is a psychopath and farrah is a drama queen