chocolate shakes , french fries and cake.. oh my!

I think I'm in a rut and/or a plateau. I' eat really well throughout the week for the most part but then the weekend shows up and all hell breaks loose. It's like i want to lose more weight but at the same time i want to eat whatever i want. I am sabotaging myself.
I've been better the last 2-3 days but i still feel it lurking around the corner as the weekend approaches.

I need more support. I need Kelly to say no to when i try to drink a shake, or eat french fries instead of a salad.. or when i get a snack after dinner when I'm completely and obviously not hungry.


please give me the support to continue and not quit! I've gone too far to quit now!!

new goals... new motivations

I need inspiration people!! I feel so unmotivated! I need a goal to work toward.. my last goal was to go below 200 pounds (currently at 197.8) now that I'm here what next? maybe my new goal should be to get out of the size 16's and to get into 14's.. but is that enough for me to strive for?? Do i even want it that badly? UGH im getting frustrated. ....-shakes it off- MOVING ON! How am i going to get there? Who's going to push me?? bueller? bueller??
I need everyone i come across to slap me if i try eating something bad.. like today i ate Chinese buffet! what was i thinking! Then dinner was awful too Frito Pie THEN i proceeded to have a shake after dinner as well.
In September it will be a year since ive started this whole thing.. part of me thinks i should have more of a weight loss.. maybe that should be a goal to lose an additional 20 pounds by September..

THATS IT! THATS WHAT I'LL DO.. by September 25th 2010. That would have been exactly 1 year since i started..

YES! alright! i am pumped!!
(dont let me get unpumped k??)

PIGGIE PIGGIE PIGGIE

Wow.. its been over a month since my last post. I'm sorry alot of it had to do with me being so busy but then also of it had to do with the fact that i was slacking so hard. I wasn't counting my calories at all. I would eat whatever i wanted...like drinking beer and eating fries and KFC. tsk tsk tsk..gained 4 pounds. i hit 198 and then i went on my eating spree and gained 4 pounds. UGHH
BUT! I AM BACK ON TRACK. Yesterday I started staying back within my calories and counting again.

Kristy and i went to the gym after work. I went straight for the dreaded Stair master and did.. 13 mins and 45 seconds and couldn't take anymore!!! SO TOUGH! then i did 30 mins on a broken elliptical. HAHA it was broken because it wouldn't let me adjust the incline or resistance. SO! i selected interval training as i normally do and when it went to 10 for the incline and 8 resistance and i felt like i couldn't take anymore and normally i move it down i couldn't!! So it totally sucked! haha but in the best way possible.

I am making an agreement with my roommate that if she sees me going into the kitchen to try to eat after i already had dinner she has to yell at me haha.. hopefully that will work.

Tomorrow me and kristy are going to a kick boxing type class.. should be fun!!
alright yall goodnight!!